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1:09am I’ve learned to make peace with pain.

I reject the notion that I set my own worth. That I myself just happened to stumbled upon an elevated ego. “Self-worth” is a deceptive phrase if you ask me. Because it’s not sustainable. See, just like any human, I’m susceptible to influences of other fallible humans and thus if…

Somebody please explain to me, why is taking personal responsibility so controversial? Why can’t we acknowledge that yes horrible things happen to people but then decided that we will not be a victim in anyone’s narrative? No one is without fault. No one is without hurt. I rather stand with you than against you. I rather believe there’s inherent good in you than inherent evil in you. But that’s my choice. You have the right to yours.

There is always more we don’t know. Knowing. The antithesis to faith. If we knew it all, there’d be no room for faith. There is an answer to every why question, But you don’t get them all. Be grateful for the answers you do get. Make peace with the answers you don’t get. There is always more to know. There is always room for faith.

sep.05.2019 — For the record… I still choose him. If it were my choice, I’d choose him over and over and over and over again. Over again — redundant, I know. I’m making my point. Maybe I’m leaving this here because I’ve given up hope. Hope that he’ll ever choose me again…

jul.08.2019 — Do you still believe, or has life made a mockery of us far too many times? Us. Not you, Because despite everything, I still feel we’re one. At least for now, I still hope. If you had to choose between Memento and The Entire History of You, which reality would you make yours? I think you know my answer.